Reaching my goal and moving forward

SO...I set myself a goal to complete 20,000 the other day...
AND I DID IT!  Yay, Jessica!
That puts me 1/4 of the way through where I think I need to be to produce a publishable YA Fantasy novel.  O far, so good, but I feel as if I am hindering myself with doubt at this point.  I think I may be afraid to finish.  What happens after that?  What if no one wants to publish my book, and I am left with that looming decision on whether to keep at it or just throw it on Amazon as an e-book?  That would be the last thing I want to do.  Honestly, I know that hand held books are becoming obsolete, but all I want to do is walk into one of the few remaining book stores and see Fluttera on the shelf.  I have to stop worrying about that for now, and remember that I have to have a finished product first.  I guess that is why most people who start novels, never finish them.  I do not want to be one of those people.  I guess the thing to do is stop writing this post and get to writing the next 20,000 words. 

Progress At Last!

I managed to finish Chapter 13 today, which I am excited about, but I am more excited about the fact that I have finally come up with a complete storyline.  I know every scene, minus the gritty details, of how the book will go.  I have figured out a conflict and how to resolve it.  All I have to do for crying out loud is write it!  I am so anxious!  I am just under 19,000 words and my chapters are anywhere from 1000-1500 words long.  By the time I am done, I may have 50 chapters.  I don't know if that is considered ridiculous or not, but I don't care.  It is my book after all.  I know it may be wishful thinking, but I think I can squeeze out a chapter in one to two days now if I can manage to keep damn Netflix off.  It is my downfall.  That puts my timeline anywhere from 45 to 60 days...if I don't take too many days off.  Since the kids are back in school from Christmas break. I think I will be fine.  I have found my motivation, and I am ready to get this thing done!

On Hiatus

It has been extremely too long since I updated this blog because it has been that long since I have written a single word in my book.  I don't know if I lost focus because I started working or I was just too tired, but in reality, I know, there is no excuse.  I know that if I want to actually write my book, I have to suck up every ounce of determination I have, and just do it.  I have recently gotten back some of my motivation, and have managed to squeak out a meager 350 words this week.  I did finish chapter 12 and have moved on to 13.  I am at a transitional part of the book and it requires me to come up with a new land with many details and new dialogue.  I find it hard to muster up any sort of creativity at the moment; therefore, I feel stuck.  What a crappy place to be, but I am living in it.  If I can manage to pull through it this week, maybe the next few chapters will come easier...maybe not.  Either way, at this very minute, I know I am trying.  Prayers at this juncture are appreciated.